Disappointments

Its been really long time since i last blogged. Realised im always here when i need to vent. Its really true how people say the more you hope, the more disappointed you get. I'm totally feeling it now. I hate it when someone says something but doesnt mean it in his or her heart.

i feel like a second-class person again rahhh

just so my blog will be more alive, i added a picture (Y) lovely cupcakes! i want to eat it :)

i wish i can sing well.

my engineering dreams are gone down the drain- just like that. i have to go sim and do business alrdy. so if anyone of you is reading this, please do not ask me where i got posted to cos its damn depressing, esp when some people have super a lot of scholarships offered to them and they are still complaining they dont kw which one they should go. like hello? ppl like me dont have a single singapore uni that wants me. even ntu doesnt even give me a chance for an interview for sociology.

seriously, i dont need people to vent their anger at me when there are MORE than enough anal customers to please everyday. reminder to self: MUST BE DAMN PATIENT X A MILLION.

“If you take a step back from the overwhelming issues; take a step back and look at everything on a much larger scale, you will find that even the smallest of positives can far outweigh any negative. It’s all about focusing your perspective on the better things in life, and making the most of what you’ve got rather than dwelling on what you don’t.”

hmm so apparently quite a few people i know have gotten their acceptance letter from nus. I guess now's the time to (even more so) place my trust and hope in god, cos I know there will be greater things to come from him (: that being said, i cant wait to go universal studio & kbox! ^.^

Cos i'm bored

Taken from a old friend's lj.
1. a picture of you in your room.

2. a picture with someone you talk a lot to.

so cute hor hahah. he talks x2 as much as me! :D

3. My favourite banner.


I <3 this banner till today :) sec 4 banner

4. a picture of you on your birthday, or your favorite holiday.



EUROPE! :)

5. the youngest picture you can find of yourself in digital form.
I LAZY DIG MY CUPBOARD. NEXT TIME!

6. a picture of you in one of your favorite outfits.


HAHA seriously i love this dress i got from fep.

7. a picture of you making a goofy face at the camera.


8. a picture you miiiiiight have edited to make yourself more attractive.
most of my pictures are haha. esp those when i have big pimple days.

9. a picture of a night you regret.
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10. a picture of you being truly yourself.




SRLY, SLEEP FTW

11. the most recent picture of you.


12. a picture of you being absolutely ridiculous.
DONT HAVE. I am always sane :)

13. a picture of you showing off a new haircut/color.

sec3/4 short hair! i know i look like a small kid :/

14. a picture of a time in your life that's over, but you wish it wasn't.


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Choir

15. a picture of a time in your life that's over, and you couldn't be more thankful that it is

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16. a picture of you that you had no idea was being taken.
ALOT SIA.GO FACEBOOK SEE.

17. a picture of you with someone you love.

BABY! but i love others too :)

18. a picture of how you'd like the world to see you.



always soaring to greater heights and unbeatable! :)

19. A picture of one of the best days/nights of your life.


SUPER NICE SKY IN CANADA.

Bye all. (Y)

Great company, great food :)

When my way seems dark and drear and the future i don't know, my heart feels so empty as the tears unending flow. WHen my heart breaks with sorrow, and a tempest fills my soul, this one thing i know for sure, my god is in control. His way is perfect,though i don't understand his wise and loving plan.

:)

Uni Apps have been really annoying. But i'm thankful i managed to finish 3/5 of my essays already! :)

There are times when the quote 'silence is golden' really stands. And this is one of those times. please, just try to understand and keep quiet okay?

my discretionary essay for nus (uncompleted) HOHO
Each and every person possesses a special talent or skill, such as in the field of sports or even in the area of leadership, community service, entrepreneurship and arts. .The 'special talent' that i believe i possess and is very important to me is singing. To me, singing is not only the mere ' uttering of musical sounds using our own voice' , but more importantly, it is a form of art that allows us to express our beliefs and emotions in a visible way.Through singing, we expose ourselves to the beauty of music. Those listening,experiencing the art of singing, resonate to this beauty and move toward the act of singing and making melody with their hearts. Singing also brings people from all walks of life together- integrating the duplexity within us to create a vocal sound that is so beautiful and magical from our 'raison d'être'. I myself, after being in 3 different choirs for the past 7 years, have experienced this special experience firsthand. However, to be able to achieve that state of purity and the beauty in one's vocal voice, when singing, requires a lot of practice.....

Just a random post

walao eh seriously when some guys go army they talk about what happened in army non-stop, about their training, field camp, shooting non-stop. or rather, army becomes their only topic to talk about, even among girls. not that i blame them especially since they spend a hell lot of time there. i just think it gets really boring after a while.

Cloud burst!

Glad for friends like them. Nus varsity voices was not bad, i liked their 'with a lily in your hand' and gabriel ciao solo for the last song even though the rest of the choir drowned his voice out at certain parts.

Anyway, char was just talking to me online and i'm really glad and comforted that i have someone who knows exactly how i feel.
Char-lene : Glee season(: says:
*i know what its like to fail
*but its just another obstacle in our lives
*so if we face it and cling on to God, He'll really guide you
*He'll definitely clear your path
*so seek Him first no matter what choice you make!
*its not easy but its attainable(:

i dont feel that lousy anymore.
ps. i really think that eric whitacre's songs has a strange calming effect on me. i can listen to it over 20 times a day and still not get bored of it.

This is a really random post. so you can skip this if you want :p
I actually choked on my food so badly the first time the blur female actress vomited on tv just now and almost vomited the second time she vomited on tv because of continuous choking. Now that i think about it, it's kinda funny HAHHAAH. i think i will excel in those people-get-drunk-and-vomit parts or even those fall- sick- then- faint- on -streets scenes. Mediacorp should hire me D;

Every time people say 'hi' on msn these 2 days, i groan because i can copy and paste all their convos which in fact consists of the same question over and over again
Person A; Hi
Me: ?
Person A: How's your results?

or Person B:eh what did you get? good right

or even Person c: hey hope you are okay. how did you do?

Seriously, i know you guys are just concerned, but i need some breathing space k. would appreciate it if you guys stop asking cos i dont want to be reminded again and again of my mediocre results.

It sucks.

tmrw's the day results will be released. I'll be lying if i said i never once thought about it, frightened at the prospect of what might happened. But i guess this is the time i ought to trust god more, and not lean unto my own understanding of what might or might not happened. because in the end, what's most important is to let go, let god and thank him.
to god be the glory (:

I hate it when people think i'm so bully-able. When people think i'm so nice to trapple on argh. I may be nice at times, but there's a LIMIT to it.

stop.it.

I wanted to type a whole long post to vent, but i'm too upset now. sigh. Just really really mega upset right now :(