One step at a time

i feel a strange sense of relief, a slight tinge of happiness. strange, you ask. for a person who was so down until she off her phone once she got home & didnt go on msn, but resorted to sleeping the whole afternoon. how could she feel happy so fast? the truth is, i dont know. but i have been thinking about it the whole night. & i realise tht life isnt about finding myself, but creating myself. even if i have to sleep twice as much as and situations do color life but we are given the mind to choose what the color shall be.people to keep awake, even if i can not be as fit as others or healthy, i will Live as if you were to die tomorrow, Learn as if you were to live forever. because i kw that even though I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow, but just to be alive is a grand thing. Our living is determined not so much by what life brings to you as by the attitude you bring to life; not so much by what happens to us as by the way our mind looks at what happens.Circumstantions and situations do color life but you have been given the mind to choose what the color shall be. why not choose it?

Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice. right now, i would like to apologize to anyone who i used to rant to, sorry for having you to listen to all my crap. but well , i am learning now to face my problems on my own, & i did so today at least by not ranting so much even though i really wanted to scream into someone's ear so badly.

Life is an art we are required to practice without preparation, a score that we play at sight even before we have mastered our instruments. it isnt easy, but i will try :)