Retail therapy

was browsing through the web just now, & i happen to find these really adorable PB&J earrings! :) but ah its sold out,so in the meantime i shall just stare at it, hoping no one actually gets mistaken and eats it. check out http://www.fredflare.com/
OK, i'm not a fan of pink. but this jacket is nice! havent seen it ard in sg yet though. Quote emma bunton“I love shopping, especially food shopping." reminds me of those times when me & glad will go ard finding food to eat while shopping, LOL

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some people have told me i always seem to be happy & i am funny. but truth be damned, i am NOT in the least happy. perhaps, it has become a habit for me to smile as long as i get enough sleep or maybe because i always believed that A smile is a curve that sets everything straight. but no not anymore. i used to always believe that " its takes more muscles to frown then smile", but well, i have come to realise its all BULLSHIT. even looking at flowers now, esp roses which used to cheer me up has NO EFFECT ANYMORE. When once my highest assurance of

f the goodness of Providence seems to me to rest in the flowers. when i used to believe that All other things, our powers, our desires, our food, are all really necessary for our existence in the first instance, and rose is an extra. when i used to believe that Its smell and its color are an embellishment of life, not a condition of it. and that It is only goodness which gives extras, and that we have much to hope from the flowers. ahh but not anymore, not anymore. i have become a wiltered flower, no longer able to lead people out of their dark moments, no longer able to cheer people up. i wonder if i ever will become a blooming flower again. if only life was that easy, if only.....

on a another note, i have been having countless of nightmares ever since promos started up till now. & what scares me is that all these have been coming true, at least most of them (esp anemia) since only my aunt has them and my mum does not, i thought all the times i felt like fainting, tired was all just merely a coincidence and i never really bothered going for a body checkup. its strange that i dont feel at all happy knowing the cause of all the times i didnt go school because of all these i dont kw why. sometimes i wish that i can look into the seeds of time, And say which grain will grow, and which will not.

ARGHZX